burrow inside myself

This is a poem about dealing with my past as an adult, and how it makes me feel.

When I am alone I burrow inside myself.
Not neatly folded, carefully pressed
and flattened into a recognizable shape
like a treasured letter.

Instead I crumple and wrinkle.
Hard lines and sharp angles.
Jagged edges and deep rifts.
Ready to be torn into pieces.

I sit blank faced, immobile, mostly.
My hands give my secrets away.
They fidget, pick, and tap.
The hands of a small child.

My mind races like a fugitive.
Making haste through a murky past.
My anxiety, my fear, my shame.
I do not trust myself alone.

Maliciously, it digs up the wost
the terrible things I try to lose.
It transfers the hidden to the forefront.
Disregarding my attempts to gain control.

I become a paralyzed hostage.
My thoughts hold me captive,
slam me down, rape the weak
soft parts of my soul.

I am transformed, just like my hands.
I am small and insignificant.
I am ashamed and embarrassed.
I am a child without a hero.








 

Author's Note

Let me know what you think, be detailed please. Thanks!

Reviews

[Kaylor Mason]

Wow. The line about how thoughts slam you down and rape the weak parts of your soul was especially powerful. I thought this was great in how accurately it portrays how much we are victims of our own minds. Speaking personally, I burrow inside myself way too often.

[Theresa]

This is amazing. There are so many lines that are so intricately written:
'Burrow inside myself, not neatly folded, crumple and wrinkle, jagged edges, deep rifts, my hands give my secrets away, slam me down, rape the weak...'
Amazing, really. It is a piece that many can relate to as we tend to hang on to the past especially negativity- and become 'paralyzed' (perfect word choice for getting your idea across). Thanks for sharing!

[Laura Maidah]

All Lauras are great poets. I hope your name is Laura. Lol. That's my name too.

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I love this and the metaphors used. Amazing write

[Legolas]

Very nice.The metaphors and similes are flawless. I can get a clear picture of what the character is going through and I can clearly feel their distressed emothions. Very well done. Keep up the great work:)

[Emrys Realmskip]

I think that this is a wonderful piece! first i love the title, 2nd the flow is really good and helps the reading to not get distracted.& 3rd its long but not to long just enough 'mmphh' if you know what i mean lol
-----Savvy
:)