Unsettled

For the thoughts that keep us awake at night...

Events beyond my control
Unsettle me, like looking in a mirror
And seeing only weakness
Or waking up only to close
My eyes and wish for sleep.

To lie awake at night
Is the harshest cruelty.

Alone in the dark, the house
Full of sleeping dreamers
Memory invades my peaceful moments
Disrupts the rhythm of the night
Substitutes calm for chaos.

I forget to not remember
My infinite fallibility.

I once was found, but now I'm lost
Inside a whirlwind of deeds done
That cannot be undone
Wrought not with regret or guilt
But chilling, implacable helplessness.

To lie awake at night is the harshest cruelty.
I forget to not remember my infinite fallibility.
Events beyond my control unsettle me.

Author's Note

All comments and suggestions welcome