Without MeA Story by bluejayI just let go. There was nothing to be afraid of. We were in the middle of
nowhere; there wasn’t anything I could have done. Luke sipped a beer on the
porch. Sarah - was she his girlfriend? Was walking towards the van. With a
little wave back, she got in. The headlights went on and dust flew up as the
van roared away, carrying all our friends away, far away from here. Carrying
Sally and Tully and Hugh. I thought I could hear strains of music from the open
window as the vehicle shrunk, smaller and smaller, until it was just a pair of bright
red dots on the horizon. The road led straight from this house to the rest of
the world. Luke turned to me. “You’re still here.” “Yeah,” I answered him. “I like it here. Is that okay?” He nodded and motioned for me to sit down beside him, so I
walked over. The couch had retained some of the heat of the day, some of
that thick, spicy heat that had illuminated and permeated everything,
retreating now that the sun had gone down. “Want a beer?” “No thanks.” I declined. “Want some music?” I shrugged. “Why not.” Luke got up and slouched toward the dusty CD player. “I
think this also has a radio function…” he twiddled around for a while. I
watched the condensed water run down the beer he’d put on the small table next
to the couch. After achieving some static, a clear sound came from the player.
Country music? How fitting. “I know this one!” Luke straightened up. I looked at him,
and he was grinning. Suddenly, he jumped down the few steps of the porch onto
the dusty earth of the yard. As I watched, he started to hop, skip and dance
around in little circles, flicking his fingers around as if he was holding a
guitar. “Turn it up a bit,” he called to me. I laughed and went over to the player, turning up the
volume. After watching Luke do his crazy dance for some time, I found myself
unable to stop smiling. Here we were. Miles away from anyone else. “I’ve been thinkin’
about going to the woods, Lately,
I think maybe I should,” Luke sang along. He seemed lost
in his own world, not caring. “What’s the song called?” I asked. “Without Me, by
John Fealy.” Then he sang some more. I sat down on the porch steps and
watched him. I could barely make out his silhouette, as the sky was darkening
steadily now. “Oh, what would you
do, What
would you do? What
would you do, Without
me?” The song ended on a lasting, acoustic chord. Luke stopped. I
could hear his heavy breathing and I was sure that he would be soaked in sweat,
hot as it still was. “Turn on the porch light, love,” he called from the
near-darkness. “Then come join me. It’s fun.” “If you say so,” I smiled, and went inside to turn on the
lights. He’d never called me love
before. He’d never called anyone love
before. It was unlike Luke to, and yet, it was unlike me to accept it in this
way. What strange people the night made of us, I thought. The next song was one that Luke couldn’t recognise, though
much in the same style. The wind was starting to pick up a little. I couldn’t
see any of the surrounding bushlands. The house and its bright windows, and the
porch light shining on a circle of red earth in front of it - that was the
world now, that was all that existed. The music played only within this little
circle. It was for our ears only. We danced - sometimes holding hands,
sometimes apart. Sometimes with air guitar and banjo. Neither of us had thought
to bring any real instruments. I forgot a lot of what happened that evening - just snatches
remain now, crazy, blurred photographs. At one point I asked Luke if Sarah was
his girlfriend. He shrugged and said he didn’t know. I asked him if he loved
her. “I’m crazy about her,” he said, and took a sip of beer. For
some reason, this made me laugh. On, and on. I must have laughed for hours. We
danced to the music. “It’s my mixtape,” he told me after the fourth song. “But I
don’t know what’s on it. A friend gave it to me.” I don’t know if I ever picked up any alcohol. But I must
have. I took off my shoes, and he took off his, and we threw them
into the darkness beyond the circle of light. We laughed and thought we’d never
find them again. Then we danced with bare feet. It was painful, as the yard was
full of small stones and twigs. Luke took off his shirt and wrung it out before
putting it on again. I tightened the shoulder straps of my dress. They kept
slipping, I found. We danced on and on. And suddenly, we didn’t dance anymore. We were too tired. I
don’t think either of us thought to turn off the music. I fell asleep on the
couch on the porch. The last thing I remember is Luke, patting me lightly on
the head, before he downed his beer and lay down on the hard, wooden floor. In the morning, it was all over and the world had grown again
to the horizon. I woke up and, stepping over him, I walked slowly to my car and
drove back to the outside, barefoot. © 2015 bluejayAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorbluejaySydney, AustraliaAboutJust a young writer - I enjoy writing fictional pieces of all sorts. Writing is just a hobby at the moment, but in the future I hope to develop it further :) more..Writing
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