Human Waste

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhFWNncnQJc (For performance poetry, short film version) First constructed piece I ever wrote (15/16) years old.

There is no humanity in a life lived at waist height
Humanity blown around like newspapers to cling at your feet
Longing to be read, seeking only to fulfill their purpose

You think I am homeless because I am a drug addict,
I am drug addict because I am homeless
One little pill to take away all my torment, yes please

Drugs are a blindfold so I cannot see the shame your eyes project upon me
I scare you for seeing only heartbreak and a mistake or two between us
So on behalf of the falling and the fallen let me apologize for disrupting your day

When the ground fell away I left my home full of regret and tears
Now I spend each day looking back on opportunities lost and wasted years

Every day I sit with hands outreached in agonizingly silent pain
As you throw me scraps of coin and looks of shame

Oh I wish I could go back put things right and correct my wrongs
Your eyes remind me though that I am where someone like me belongs

What have I done to deserves God’s scorn
I am lost in mapped out paths that were decided before I was even born

Take me and filter me o’lord from your lay of thorns
From a life of 19 years only failure forms

So I have no choice but to ride these winds of fate
For love and redemption.............

................Well I guess I will just have to wait!

Copyright 'Human Voice' 1997-2013

Author's Note

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhFWNncnQJc (Short film, performance poetry version)

Reviews

[Creepy Swine Guy]

I love the words, you are a wordsmith. I don't know that I join hands with the message though. Life at waist level is only life at waist level until one performs the simple act of ... standing up. Some may disagree, but I believe that addiction to food is no less strong, and I have managed to get hold of that for myself. The key is that I don't have to be strong for the rest of my life ... just in the next moment ... the next instant that I wobble.

Just an old man's take.

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

No you are quite correct, you do just have to stand up but it is not as easy as that. Acceptance is painless but getting there is agony. It takes a very brave soul to accept responsibility for their actions. A vast proportion of society loves destroying others as a cheap flight to their own sense of gratification and empowerment. We all have within ourselves the power to encourage those who hide in the shadows to emerge, but we are too self obsessed to step aside from our comfort and denial. I wallowed in self pity for years until I committed suicide and realised you cannot kill the dead, so instead I decided to live and started to breathe in self atonement and creation. This is why I write, I would like to help others see that the chains that bind their acceptance are the very same chains that keep humanity unhuman. When we see that pain and suffering are not unique to us we find comfort and solace to step a little nearer to the light. Sharing and honesty are the most under used human attributes, emotions are what makes us human. The way we deal with those emotions determine what kind of human you are. So sometimes you need to borrow the words of others to act like crutches to help you stand.

[Creepy Swine Guy]

I am reminded of some words in a speech once given by he late Sen. Robert F. Kennedy ...

read moreI am reminded of some words in a speech once given by he late Sen. Robert F. Kennedy ...

"We learn, at the last, to look at our brothers as aliens, men with whom we share a city, but not a community; men bound to us in common dwelling, but not in common effort. We learn to share only a common fear, only a common desire to retreat from each other, only a common impulse to meet disagreement with force. For all this, there are no final answers.

Yet we know what we must do. It is to achieve true justice among our fellow citizens. The question is not what programs we should seek to enact. The question is whether we can find in our own midst and in our own hearts that leadership of humane purpose that will recognize the terrible truths of our existence. "

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

wow, nicely said Mr Kennedy!

[Girl Friday (Sarah W.)]

I love the flow of this one...dark and deep, but also soulful and beautiful at the same time. You have very good taste when it comes to word choice and phrasing, as well as your rhyme scheme, which was not overdone. Nicely written...this one took me somewhere.

[Frieda P]

Wow, pretty potent write for a 15 year old, wise beyond your years. It's a good read not matter the age or time.

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

Not sure wise beyond me years is correct. Realization and awareness can be a curse as it eliminates you from the majority, the line dance. This renders you abstract, freakish and outcast. 'I curse the light for showing me the truth but not how to live it' was a line i wrote sometime ago. Later in life I came to realize that i would prefer to be an outcast than to try and mold myself into the mainstream and sacrifice my soul to conformity.