Gaining consciousness

I have scars across my wrist, one for every year of life,

Cut from January to December, just so I know that time has passed

My soul is blistered from the friction of forced love,

For I believed that two souls must rub together to create that spark

I am waking up now, gaining consciousness

Acceptance is painless, but getting there is utter agony

Denial is just a mirror reflecting what you want to see

And I don't really much care to see the truth of me

My soul is breached from too many false hopes,

Bottle the pain swallow you pride

My teeth are now just calcium deposits

No more skin upon them to escape by

I am waking up now, gaining consciousness

Acceptance is painless but getting there was sheer hell

Yet from none of these chisel strikes would I flinch from again

For here I stand carved and statued in my awakening

Copyright 'The Human Voice' 2012

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Author's Note

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nKh15BJ6qo Visual version

Reviews

[frivolous treasures]

This was extremely emotional and powerful... *speechless*

"i am waking up now, gaining consciousness
acceptance is painless but getting there was sheer hell
yet from none of these chisel strikes would i flinch from again
for here i stand carved and statued in my awakening"

Brilliantly conveyed!! We all get so lost in a obsidian cloud of darkness swirling around us, and feel so lost, for we do not know what lies ahead. All we can do is wander softly, calling out to those who may hear, helping those who stumble through, and after all is done, look back, don't regret, and know that your a better person. Not so lost, not so hurt, but what is life without a scarred heart? Nothing. For a smooth, perfect heart has not lived. We are all lost souls, but finding one another in the dark is life.
This also made me uncomfortable with myself:

"denial is just a mirror reflecting what you want to see
and i don't really much care to see the truth of me"

I really looked inside me today, and realized how lost I am. But also, I've discovered, how found I am.

Thank you for this wonderful verse, it really made me contemplate... and I'm still thinking!

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

Thank you again, your reviews are always so uplifting and motivating x

[frivolous treasures]

you are so very welcome, sir :)

[sheila.j]

Wow this is really powerful. I love the emotion in this and the way you wrote it is striking, just beautiful.

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

Thank you Sheila

[Rick Puetter]

Dear Human Voice,

This is a very powerful write of self-awareness. You trace one's self-deceit, it's power, and the pain required to see beyond its vail. There are some wonderful lines, like the last line and "Denial is just a mirror reflecting what you want to see / And I don't really much care to see the truth of me." There are also some beautiful metaphors, i.e., liking the stages of one's life to the growth-rings of a tree. This all was very well done.

Best regards,

Rick

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

Thank you most kindly Rick, This is the most recent of my works having been distracted by society for the last few years. Something jumped out from the abyss and said boo!. I realized then that my world was nothing but deep heat rubbed on to aching muscles. I put down the heavy weight of society and turned back to what really makes sense, humanity.

[RachelReaper]

I love the way you can weave emotions with together with descriptive wordplay, its genius!

[Mark Anthony Games (Human Voice)]

genius, wow. Thank you. I must deflate my head before attempting to leave the room now :-) I quite like this piece as it came out quickly. Writers cafe has lots of inspiring authors and I wish I had found this site earlier. Thank you for your review.

[RachelReaper]

haha, well I meant what i said :) and your welcome