Deluded

“I’ll always be here if you need me.”

I said it to you, and it’s true.

No matter where you go, or what you do

I’ll drop anything, go anywhere for you.

It sounds desperate, feeble, pathetic

but it’s what my heart screams.

 

We need time apart to sort out our heads,

this I know and agree

but each time I stumble over a memory a small piece of me

         dies.

You call me a ‘star’

but I’m in too deep; I’ve gone too far.

After all I’ve been through I cannot, will not, lose you.

If you just want to remain friends I’ll try to,

try to silence my desires anew.

I’ll pretend to be normal and happy,

you’ll see that I’m smiling like any other day,

     but this time my heart is breaking.

Reviews

[jdt]

Really moving work. In terms of technique, I particularly like the way 'dies' drops down a line; an inventive and effective use of form. But who cares about technique when a poem is just this rich with feeling?

Beautiful, I can clearly see the depth of each line and how deeply you love this person.