Did you know?

So many questions and regrets of words left unsaid. Did they know?

Sometimes I just stared at you because I couldn't believe you were real.
I wanted to tell you I loved you a hundred times a day but I didn't.
I've looked into your eyes and wondered what they'd seen.
I wanted to kiss all your hurts away, to hold you while you fell asleep.
Sometimes I dreamed of us lying on the grass, staring at clouds.
I wanted to take you on picnics, and let you stick flowers in my hair.
I hate myself for losing you.
I wanted to pick out paint colors with you, and argue about carpet.
There were so many things I wanted to share with you.
I thought up ice cream dates, and crafts we could do together.
I wanted you to be my plus one at every wedding.
I couldn't feel anything for the first week after we broke up.
I wish I was strong enough.
If I could find I way to get you back I'd do it in a heartbeat.
I wonder if you felt it, that dead-weight emptiness inside your chest.
I hope you didn't feel it, because I did and it was hell.

Author's Note

Again, I just needed to get it out there but feedback is always welcome.

Reviews

[Decidious wind]

This reminds me a lot of clay from 13 reasons why. Truly heartbreaking.