Through the years.

I was suposed to be named Violet dressed in purple, and have my own room. That didn't happen. My life never happened all I have been doing is watching. I guess you could say i'm the creak in the hall. The cold feeling in the nursery. Never there just watching. Still I wonder what I would have been like. Would I have made friends? Had a family? Fell in love? At last I will never know, because I died before I was born.

When I was born I was a ghost. Crawling and trying to interact with my surondings. The most I could do was move objects. I cried because no one would ever notice me. It took me awhile to figure out, nothing I could do would help I simply wached for the next few years.

Growing up was lonely I learned slowly like all other infants. The more I learned the more I fealt left out. Not being able to go to school, get a hug from a parent, and I would simply follow for the next few years. After years of watching I realized that death was also hard on my family. After Dad left and while watching mom cry I felt bad that I couldn't do anything. I couldn't comfort her, or tell her it was gonna be OK.

My mom had to move out of the house, and then only my dad lived here. He changed though he was no longer the father I wanted to have. He would go out and drink, he would be gone intire nights and come home at eight in the morning. Until one day he got married to a stranger. She had a son and for the first month the son would sleep here and his mom would pick him up later in the day. I thought the new women would help my father, instead they got into violent fights. After she left and her son stayed my father got more violent screaming at the child.

I had to protect him. At first it was simple moving him in another room when my father would have an outburst. He wouldn't notice since he was blinded by rage.

I would feed him when my father wasn't there played with him put him to bed. It felt nice interacting. Watching wasn't the only thing I could do.

Author's Note

I know it's short, but please read it. I tried my best with the spelling and gramer, but there may still be a few errors.