Blind to My Pain

I'm pretty sure that you guys can guess what this was about... I wonder if this was just a big misunderstanding?

 

The phone rings,
I know it's you.
My heart goes into overdrive.
My mind filled with questions.

I answer it.
Nervous.
Scared.
Hurt.
Love.

You say
you got caught
sneaking back in
that night.
But you called me
from a friend phone.

You're acting like everything's okay.
You refuse to see
the truth
of what really happened.

Refuse to hear my cries for help.
My screams of pain.
You thought I wanted it?

Tears slide slowely down my cheeks.
My palms break into a sweat
as I tell you
I've been fine.
I got back inside
without getting caught.

I don't know what I'm doing this weekend.
Racking my brain
for some excuse
so I don't have to see you again.

Could I face you?
Knowing you have the strength
to do it again.

You say
you were worried about me.
My heart flutters.
I stay silent.
Flashback.

The smell
of your breath,
of your sweat
of the aftermath.
The taste
of your tongue
from the one kiss
I let you steal.

My fault.
I led you on.
Led you to believe
I wanted this insanity.

You whisper that you have to go
but murmer
that you still care about me
you thank me,
(for what? Enduring the personal hell you're putting me through?)
Before the dial tone
3 words
I never dreamed
I would hear out of a rapists mouth
reach my ears
right before the dial tone.

So confused.
So hurt.
So scared.

1 Lost girl:
Please call if found.
Last seen
in the arms of someone
who didn't ask first

Reviews

[♥Kaitlyn♥]

wow that was really good. I loved it.
I love how everything flowed well.
My favorite stanza:
"My fault.
I led you on.
Led you to believe
I wanted this insanity."

[Mahigan]

Your words are put together well, you can feel and experience the emotion. But your flow is erratic; try to keep your verses the same length. This does not necessarily mean the same word length; but rather the same syllables in each verse. Good write overall, I enjoyed it :)

[HopelesslyDevoted]

aww so magical romantic! love it!

[zappy]

this is wonderful {

[Lily Mae]

This is outrageously awesome. You penned these emotions very well.. A tough subject for sure.. Man that last stanza is killer..x

[aaron]

sad and beautiful. it is deep, mournful, and i feel the tear in the heart of the character. i feel the discomfort, and the pain. it is another deep yet somewhat strait forward pome.
amazing.

[Sujash I. Purna]

this is fantastic! Lovely imagery! The conclusion ends in some irony. I loved it!

[Bare trees]

Heartbreaking. Date rape is serious business if this really happened to you. If you didn't tell anyone about it you should. It will eat away at you for years if you don't. You really went deep with this and as far as it being a misunderstanding, It wasn't. He should have known to stop.

In my head I can hear this from two different perspectives.

The phone rang,
I knew it was him.
My heart went into overdrive.
My mind filled with questions.

ect...

(Friend's phone)