I am a LOST SOUL.🍁🍂

This poem is for anyone that has put on a happy face to other people so that other people cannot see the pain the poet is actually going through in his/her own life.

You pass me on the street and out eyes briefly meet.
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.
My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact.
You don't want to love nor do you want to have fun.
Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on.
You smile so that's what people see on your face,
they think that you are happy but deep down inside you feel like a worthless disgrace.
Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning,
But you question yourself and wonder if you act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings.
When you wake up from a night's sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart will be back to it's old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback.
You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars.
You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted.
You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire.
You're tired of running and losing your breath.
You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.
You want to feel that every day can be better than the last.
You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past....!

Author's Note

It's just a n alone poem
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Reviews

[Pink Pastel]

Wow very nice i felt that when i was reading it i was almost singing it lol:)

[Arooj Purra]

Very nice and heart touching poem.Love it.

[TheAimlessWanderer]

this is exactly how i feel as well lost sense of self a long time ago always wondering if i had anything to begin with the isolation of my mind drowning in a million thoughts always doubting everything around me true intention did not have any meaning because i always doubted reality i lived in and my feelings within their never was validity even in the things i thought see or feeled all that was left was abstract an abnormality trapped in my soul prison casual thoughts of suicide passing me daily wearing down this blank page until it withered and in cinders this a soul cry for my kindred to let you know that you are not alone in that cold dark hole always trying to grip at the lost reality trying to fight wearing a mask of pain and happiness for all too see but this was not me i was broken and alone and this poem really hit home all of it may seem like an aimless struggle but it is all to grasp the words in the soul no matter how much they seem to muddle they have meaning and their story tells of bravery and endless reason to rise above it all to find power in yourself and strength in your words to forge the path ahead to your world worth living in.

i resonated deeply with this and i wanted to let you know you were not alone/

[TheAimlessWanderer]

if you want to talk to someone message me any time.

[MICASA]

awwwww...that is soo heart touching...than you soo much for understanding my poem.....! definitely.....we will talk someday n share our thoughts to be relieved...have a good night my friend!

[TheAimlessWanderer]

yeah you have great night your poem was amazing

[Nwang]

Everything in the world becomes a stranger. You have effectively expressed the loneliness, strangeness and alienation that you feel. This poem makes me feel closer to you, i mean it kind of helps me understand you better. Keep up the good work.

[MICASA]

Awwwwwww....trust me. That feels really touching......u r really a good hearted person....thank u so much for understanding my feelings.....it comments mean a lot to me...thank u my friend!😊😃