it's stupid that i miss you - but i do

I miss you

There - plain and simple

Or it should be

But it's far from it

I HATE the fact that I miss you

Because YOU DON'T CARE

And people tell me to talk to you

But what is there to say really?

I miss you and you don't care

End of story

And I feel so stupid for not being over you

And it's so clear that I miss you

It's probably written all over my face, right?

It's like a heartbreak

Even though I've never liked you like that

There's not that big a difference really

I've lost a huge part of me

A part so dear to me

I was so jealous of everyone who talked to you

They could do it so easily, so freely

I used to be able to do that with you

That was something that I should be doing

And I hated it when they made you laugh or smile

Because I used to do that

But now?

I can't even talk to you

I wanted you back in my life

Back to those days when we were friends

Close friends

Because oh my god, we were so close

But you stopped caring right?

You even told me - not to my face of course

Because we don't do that anymore

Talk in person, I mean

God, it's been half a year and I'm still not over you

And I've lost touch with people before

People I was close to even

But none of them

NONE OF THEM

Made me hurt as much as you did

What is it about you?

That makes me feel this way

And I have better friends now

Better than you

And I love them so much

But you are still on my mind

Lingering there

When will you leave me alone?

Or the better question is

Do I want you too?

"You call him 'annoying' and 'irritating'

But deep down you still miss him"

I really wish those words weren't so true

Author's Note

this is unedited just stuff on my mind i guess and i just felt like posting it somewhere

Reviews

[Lost feelings61]

I wish those words weren't true to me but honestly you wrote how I felt , no how I feel to the exact point .
I can relate to this more than I can or could relate to anything else I've ever read .
I had someone on my mind while reading this and I thought I had gotten over it , I thought I had moved passed it , but reading this made me realise he didn't need to be my boyfriend to break my heart he did that anyways , I guess I needed something to bring back the memory of him and thanks to what you wrote that happened .

[Courtney Hough]

Sometimes just writing is the best release. Sorry you feel that way but it's so normal. Ever need to talk feel free!:)

[Samantha Anabella]

Wow, I can definitely relate to you. My ex actually, he was a huge doosh but some how made me happy. I couldn't let go even though I hated him. He hurt me so much I felt like I was broken, I couldn't be loved be any one else.
He would tell people he didn't care about me but when I asked him my self he would say that he does care about me. I was so confused, in till I finally told my self.
If he tells his best friend's that he doesn't care than so be it, there are plenty of fish in the sea who could truly care about me. So I broke up with him and guess what? I he told me he didn't care and so I cried and cried for days.
When he said that... I felt like someone swung a bat and shattered me. And to be honest... I still care about him and miss him, I must be dumb, right? No, I just actually cared for him. I treated him how I wanted to be treated and he only returned it to me when we were alone... I'm only human, so why would he do that? Because he's human too.
It's not stupid for you to feel that way, your only human.

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