BloodA Story by Alexandra HounschellFelt like writing from the POV of a sociopath. Another thing like this is coming soon(ish). None seem to really
believe me when I state that I, the hyena of my family, am not positively
aligned. Dearest readers, you should know very well of the beast I can be. I am no goddess, nor angel, nor anything
divine; the closest to an angel you can compare me to are the fallen angels
Mastema, Asmodeus, Ornias, and Penemuel. You can even view me as Abaddon, for I
destroy often. I embody the Seven Sins that damn you to Hell, and I lack the
belief to be damned to there. I have little good in my system. For those who don't
understand what I'm talking about (which is most), I shall now explain my
darker traits which are seen as evil. I shall start off with two of Seven Sins:
Avarita and Luxuria. Although separate, the two go hand-in-hand. The word that
I believe combines them properly is "desire." I have a plethora of
desires that I yearn to fulfill that range from sexual needs, money,
materialistic trash, suffering, love, and joy. All desires have demands and I
have only just learned how to moderate myself. I used to have multiple relationships just to obtain those
things I desire. I'd use people because I was used to some extent. Whenever I
"have" someone, I will get jealous at certain small things and feel
like they should be only mine despite circumstances. I'd hurt them like I do on
the frequent. I no longer give in to these desires, but I fear myself and I
know how impulsively monstrous I can be when given the opportunity. Let me delve into a
certain desire that haunts me. Suffering. My mind has ventured into the
thoughts of Euronymous and Liderc. I've never acted out on those temptations,
but I worry I would if given the perfect chance and prey. I have an ex who I'd
torment to the point of self mutilation for how she treated me. If I see a person I
lust for, I think of violating them in a psychotic ferociousness that would
leave them dying or wanting to. I'm an impulsive beast of anger; a monster.
When enraged, even slightly, my mind goes to violence. I'd rather hurt than use
logic; butcher rather than use brains. My brain is fragmented
into these personas, one being that beast I've been describing, another being
this. When I write, I take on my more intellectual side, the pompous, better
than the rest, side. That is because I am better than many. With an IQ higher
than most and a talented mind like the one I own, I am much more grandiose
mentally than almost all of the humans I am forced to interact with. I can perfectly calculate a rape and murder frenzy, and get away with being Bundy's
Successor. I can be a monster if unchained, but I have taught myself discipline
through self harm and lowering my esteem. I used to destroy and openly threaten
lives, but now I have gave into Acedia and Tristitia. I've become dull, useless,
and safe, but my blood still has evil in it which is why I shall spill it more. © 2016 Alexandra HounschellAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on November 12, 2016 Last Updated on November 13, 2016 Tags: sociopaths, dark, evil AuthorAlexandra HounschellMiami, FLAboutI'm just a young female who likes to write nonsense. I like sunsets and walks on the beach (lining it up for the joke).. Oh and writing about terrible things and whatnot. I'm just a joke in all honest.. more..Writing
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