How I feel today

This is a poem inspired by my life in constant pain after breaking my back years ago.

Life living in constant pain

So draining on my brain

Never getting a good night sleep 

Just lie there counting sheep

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I think I am going crazy

My days have become hazy

Walk around in a daze

Like I'm lost in a maze

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Some days I just want to end it all

Overdose on pills and collapse in the hall

But you see that is not my fate

It's not my time to go, I have to wait 

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Four years I've seen my own death

I watch as I take my last breath

A fraction of the man I used to be

No time to make my final plea

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A waking dream or nightmare

Either way I don't care

All I know is I have to hold on

It is not time to sing my final song

Reviews

[A.Lee]

This is amazing.... I can so relate to feeling that overwhelmed like you want to end everything, but you cant and you have to be strong enough not to. Your imagery and writing style is perfect in this poem. A great, emotion seeped read.

[♍ Kirstin ♎]

oh my god this is so sad it's amazing though. I know what it's like to live in constant pain but mines is from a fucked up nervious system not a broken back. I do know though that it is one of those things that you just have to get up and get on with though so to say although it's always easier said than done. But hopefully there will be a day for you when you are no longer in pain.

[The High Poet]

Some truth and some fiction, just had to come out :)