She Said

At 11:30 pm, she came in crying. She snuggled into my bed, wrapped her arms around me and buried her head into my hair. She told me I've lost myself. She told me I’d lost myself over three years ago. She wishes she’d have helped me then and she wishes could have protected me. She said she wishes she could undo time. I haven't been the same since, she told me. I should have found a way to cope with everything. I should have learned from my mistakes. I should have stopped getting myself into situations with the same kinds of people each time. I should have listened. I should have stood up for myself and not let people keep putting me down. I should have been more dignified. I didn't need to be afraid. I should have just been myself. She told me I don't need to pretend to be anybody else anymore to get people to like me or fit in. She said that I'm beautiful the way I am. She told me that people will like me for being me, just the way I am, just the way she see's me. She told me that I don't need to be afraid of being myself now. She said I'm in a new place now and I need to forget about every piece of s**t that's happened. She said I can't allow myself to get hurt repeatedly like before. She said she'll help me and that I don't need to change for anybody. I don't need anyone else in the world. I need to focus. I need to do my best. I need to try hard and get where I need to be. 

~Everything will be alright in the end. If it's not, then its not the end.~