Divenire

Growing up is one of the things that can make friendships or break friendships. Looking back on the past brings back many different places. The places where everybody was innocent. The places where I should have been innocent but due to circumstances, that didn't work out. The places where everybody changes and the places where the people we were in the past is almost unrecognizable compared to the people that we are now. The stupid decisions that we'll forever regret and the decisions that we regret for not making sooner. The closeness and intimacy of being in a tight friendship group that all went to different places and gradually split up in different directions. The memories of the girls that would spread rumors and lie through their teeth. The memories of being happily content with life. The memories of terrible relationships. The memories of s**t times that you wish never happened, but can never be undone because it's already written in your personal history. The memorandums that you never followed up and the times where you changed your whole personality to fit in with another crowd of people. The times when you could just bum about doing nothing with your life, but that was okay because you was young and naive and you had no duties to anything specific in your life. The dreadful memories of a first kiss. The times spent happy in the company with others and the times where you would do anything to rewind time just so those memories would have never occurred. The times where something amazing happens and you feel like a f*****g boss. The bad hair days and the days of dreadful fashion sense. The times where you couldn't sleep at night and woke up screaming into your pillow with tears running down your face for months on end. The memories that will haunt you and influence every future decision with relationships that you will ever face in your life. The mistakes that provoke lessons that have been well learnt. The stages of growing up where you have to face the person that you never wanted to lay eyes on again. The good times. The bad times. The ugly times and the sad times. The times where you do something you swore that you would never do. The year of your life that you spent f*****g your life up smoking marijuana with a bunch of people that never really gave a s**t about you. The year of abuse that you kept inside at such a young age. The year that you spent with people that loved you. The years that go by. The presents we receive. The emotions we feel. The tipsy memories that you will never change for the world. The nights of live music and strobe lighting. The nights of pictures. The nights that you will never forget. The memories of idols that we used to look up too that gradually becomes insignificant over time. The idols that we will forever hold a soft spot for and helped you get through the hardest times. The friends that get you by. The friends that come and the friends that go. The pages you turn and the levels you up. Learning experiences that have been lifesavers. Achievements that you've achieved. Moments of feeling proud of yourself. Moments of being center stage. Moments of having the attention focused on you, for all of the right reasons. Everything happens for a reason and every fallback makes you stronger.  

Reviews

[Liamesq]

This is very powerful , indeed.
I can empathise with a lot here as well as sympathise
But the deeper story behind it seems to be hiding, there's a cover
Details of each event, experience, and so on, don't have to be put into one block of writing
Instead they can be expressed in a random order, or one that is significant to you
It keeps your writing alive with emotion, but still retains a personal aspect others do not have to know at first
Bear this in mind when thinking about what you want to write next
Liam