Addictions

i lost myself today.

my blue skies turned to gray.

stuck at this crossroad.

don't know which way to go.

everything is wrong and i'm so broken.

i wanna feel numb, so light it up, start smokin.

i climb and climb till i reach that peak.

no feeling in my body, knees growing weak.

i've reached where i wanted to be.

but now i'm coming down, feelin s****y.

the pain is back, can't stand to live.

i'm sorry for all the s**t i've done, please forgive.

depression seeps back into this heart.

each part of me tears apart.

i reach out for that razorblade kiss.

something i always miss.

each line, scarlet, right after the other.

when i think i'm done, i just make another.

like this world, my body is cold.

somethings are better left untold.

wishing my breathing would just stop.

hurt so much, i just drop.

constant mental breakdowns have me spacing.

my heart is pounding and racing.

everything is gone and i'm alone.

don't call i won't answer the phone.

being swallowed by the dark abyss.

death leans in to give me a kiss.<3