SHE NEVER WAS AND NEVER WILL BE

someone too far from my reach

Now until my last moment, my last thought, my last breath I will think of you
I will childishly depend on those days, weeks and months to blanket that sharp sting I feel when you enter my imagination.
I got it bad for you and that ain't good. Why can't I get rid of you? This aching deep inside of me I have felt for no other. Am i doomed forever to yearn for someone who will never understand my tortured soul?
This fever that quickens my pulse will not last forever. My longing to kiss you and breathe you and taste the dizzying scent of your skin will eventually fade.
Another hurricane will roar up and spin me around and around and around. And when we are alone and my thoughts drift to you, hopefully she will not ask me what am I thinking...
Hopefully, I will not have to tell a lie to spare her feelings. Hopefully, I will not tell her: about your smile that freed me from my darkest place, your lips i so fantasize to kiss, your eyes that made me believe in miracles, your face that will haunt me every second of my life...

So help me, every time I wish I never met you, it's a prayer I hope God never answers...

Author's Note

Listen to Bonnie Raitt " I Can't Make You Love Me"
Love is so much more when it's returned in kind

Reviews

[Poetic License]

Haunting and simply gorgeous. It reminds me that all have those loves that never were, and the ones that will never be. Yet, still, we find our hearts pine for them and openly mourn them, unbeknownst to the object of our desire. This hit exceptionally close to home for me. This carried with it the emotional impact of a sledgehammer.

[heavenscentgirl1]

Oh my KC, this is a beautiful assemblage of words that touches me deeply. I know its been that its been awhile since I’ve visited you but it was worth the wait to find this piece.
I love Bonnie Raitt, especially that particular song. Thanks for sharing a part of your heart with us my friend. Take care 😇

[Cherrie Palmer]

What a song to align your poem to. Bonnie is soulful and can really give a song emotion.
Just like you have declared your emotions in the opening stanza. Then balanced it with a hope you don't destroy the one you're with.

[BBP]

Loved this one very much KC. The part about childishly depending on those thought and being a blanket to cover the sting. Golden. A torture that you beg not to lose was laid out so vivid and beautifully.

[Rachel Fitzgerald-Feele..]

Very powerful...real...full of depth, aching, longing...tortured emotion
An enjoyable read all the same :)