I'M SORRY,I DIDN'T MEAN IT...I LOVE YOU

this is not love, this is something else...

He likes to pull my hair...when I don't pay attention to what he's saying

He likes to look deep into my eyes...before he says he's going to kill me

He kisses me...then bites on my lip when he thinks I'm talking smart to him

He gently places his hands around my neck... before he starts choking me.I was gone too long and didn't tell him where I was going

He rubs my stomach in the softest way...he punched me there not too long ago

Sometimes he helps me pick out the right clothes to wear...to hide the belt strap marks on my body

I miss the way we would stay up all night and just talk.The last time was when I fell down the stairs.We talked about what happened and why

One special time he made a bubble bath for me and made me soak in the water.He would sing to me to make me smile and relax.That was my first day back from the hospital

I miss my family and my friends.He keeps me away from them because he thinks they are going to try and take me away.They don't understand.He needs me.I know what he does is wrong, but he regrets it.I can feel it from his heart.He says it all the time...

I'M SORRY.I DIDN'T MEAN IT.I DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME.I CAN'T HELP IT...I JUST NEED YOU...DONT LEAVE ME.PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME...I LOVE YOU

I know...I love you too...

Author's Note

Watching the news yesterday, the family of the victim kept saying she kept going back to an abusive relationship.it was for the last time

Reviews

[Mrudula Rani]

KC, You select very unusual and amazing (at times heartbreaking) matters to write about. You paint a clear picture of the abused, abuse and abuser. The statistics show that 75% the abused are eventually killed by their abusers, there is a very narrow window of opportunity in a relationship to escape... at the very first sign of abuse, the longer the victim stays in a relationship the harder for them to escape.

[sette]

it had been my advocacy for the past eight years or so for battered women and abused children, it is hard to start anew and sometimes too weak to fight. In your country there are many shelters which can help people start anew but in my country it is different, few and congested shelters to choose from and not all are even educated to understand the predicament they are in. thanks for this eye opening piece.

[Donna]

This is really sad and very real. So many think they deserve this and think that the other really loves them. You wrote that excellent!

[¿]

Oh, is it really happened? Where?