Her eyes. Her smile. Unavoidable. Unmistakable. The shape of her body. You know every detail of its design with your eyes closed. She has a laugh that's contagious. You hear it once and it stays in your head forever. But this is as far as you can proceed.These are weapons of distraction. You are not allowed any further than what appears on the outside. Look further. Look deeper. Look into the windows of her soul and this is what you see..."WHEN I RUN AWAY,I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE,NOT CHASED AFTER.I WANT TO BE OVERWHELMED BY MEMORIES OF PAIN.I WANT TO FALL TO THE BOTTOM FLOOR IN A POOL OF DESOLATION .I WILL LET THE WATER ENTER MY BODY AND DROWN MY HEART AND LUNGS.ALL OF MY SECRETS WILL REMAIN BURIED INSIDE ME.I WILL SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN I KNOW I AM NO LONGER CAPABLE OF SUCH AN EMOTION.I WILL SAY ALL THE WORDS YOU NEED TO HEAR TO EASE YOUR SELF DOUBT.I WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOU AT ARM'S LENGTH.THE WALLS THAT SURROUND ME WILL BE TOO HIGH TO CLIMB.ALL ATTEMPTS WILL BE FUTILE.I PROMISE YOU.THIS IS WHO I AM.THIS IS WHO I WILL ALWAYS BE.I AM NOT WORTH SAVING...BUT I WANT TO BE LOVED ANYWAY