Alchemy

If a disturbing thought,
or random fear
comes to awareness,
I don’t simply bear witness.  
I connect with it fully.

What does that mean?

Only that I let myself feel it
with my whole body.
I embrace it and merge with it,
until I have metabolized its energy.

I don't try to keep either
thought or feeling
at a "healthy distance." 
I'm more interested in
transmuting and composting
whatever comes to me.