Addicted to pain

Realizing how self destructive I truly am.

Today I sat here thinking

On my past that seems to be full of misgivings

There has been pain

To the same there has been lengths of happiness

I'm always coming to the end to quick

The passion I dedicate burns too quickly

What can I say...I like to burn bright

Memories bring heartache along with a smile

I can remember every painful memory

Due to them being surrounded with bliss

All of these painful memories make me

I wouldn't change my past for the world

I can wish all day things would have worked

With any of the people in my past

I wouldn't be where I am without them though

Being put on this path isn't easy

There is no pavement

The ground is littered with rubble and broken glass

I tend to run without shoes

The thrill of doing this is destroying parts of me

I am an addict

Addicted to the feeling of this pain

This realization just hit me.

I am the definition of intense and passion

All for the ending to be pain

I can't handle happiness for long

These smiles make my face hurt

These emotions run me dry

I only feel anything true when it's pain

The pain doesn't lie

Doesn't hold back to not hurt you

The whole point is pain.

Digging thorns out of my feet with a smile

To begin running again

How long till I am pulled off this destructive path permanently