They Will Always Win

Drugs will always come first

Your shirts are always red now

Do they make the blood stains from your habit easier to hide?

You're good at hiding things

I didn't realize until after I had given you everything

That it was your best talent

You erased a year's worth of compassion and love

Just to snort a line as white as a dove

I'm told I did the right thing

Leaving you and your long list of paraphernalia 

So why does it hurt

It is hard not to feel unlovable

When someone chooses a substance over you

To think a twenty minute high and a loss of smell was more important than the five hundred twenty-five thousand minutes and the smell of my perfume 

I don't believe this to be rational

But people like you never are

The loving boy I once knew is now replaced with a man who fights his best friend for just one more gram

Your tan skin now wears like leather

Your childlike laugh is now only heard when it's in a confusion of slurred words and smoke

The dreams I knew you once had are now covered in sheets of the devil's snow

I know you can't help someone if they don't want to be helped

But there is a difference between advising someone not to kill themselves and grabbing them just before they jump off the cliff

A pipe can't kiss like I do

A line won't compare to the ones we waited in for our favorite bands

A needle won't hurt as much as when I told you I deserve better

Reviews

[Norrin Shearer]

Wow, very powerful writing. The poem flowed so well and conveyed your emotions wonderfully.

[Kilmer]

Ah thank you so so much!

[Kari Kush]

this was beautiful and sad

[Kilmer]

Thank you so much! I love your writing! You're my first reviewer! Thank you x1,000