The Gray

I've finally surpassed the darkness

That darkness I've been lost in for what seemed like an eternity

But, I haven't yet found the light

Instead, I'm stuck in the gray

For the longest time, I've struggled to keep my pain in a harness

Hiding tears and cuts from loved ones

Only releasing my pain under the cover of night

Hiding it all once more during the day

All for fear of judgement...

In the end, I was still the one who paid the price

It showed in the cuts on my arms,

All from self-harm,

And through the anger and exhaustion written on my face

Yet...so many still never noticed

Still none cared

But, it doesn't matter now

The darkness has passed somehow

I've found a delicate home in the gray

But, it's not here to stay

I've been through too much pain,

Too much blackness,

To ever believe it could last

But, for now, I'll cherish every day in the gray

No pain

No tears

Only contentment

And one small fear...

The return of the blackness

But, still I will love it here

In case I lose this home of glass

And fall back into the black

And never find my way back