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Me: "Will you miss me?" Him: "No." Him: "But, you'll be great right?" Me: "I'll be great because you're leaving my life?" Him: "Uh-huh."

It's nice to know I don't mean a thing to you

I could've sworn our friendship was true

After all the things I told you.

I suppose, it was all just me

Me having all the feelings again.

Me doing all the real talking

Leaving myself as an open book for all to read

It's nice to know that you won't miss me...

As I move on with my life,

And you move on with yours

Even after I told you of my times of strife

I guess, it should be no surprise...

I lay here in my bed,

Pouring this from both my heart and my head...

Music in my ears...

All of it bringing me to tears

But, I know that...right now...

You're probably at home without a thought of me in your mind

Just one week before I'm gone

Already months of friendship left behind

I'm so sorry, I assumed a friendship existed

All the talks and laughs...

All the honesty and stories...

I thought that's something of what a friendship was

At least you broke my heart sooner than later

Now, the pain won't leave a crater

I won't go on believing in something that isn't true

So, really I should thank you.

But, I won't

I won't thank you for breaking my f***ing heart,

For being another who never really gave a s**t

You knew how I've been hurt

I guess you never cared one bit

I like how you played like an a*s at the end

Telling me you expected me to become great and to change

All because of you

I can't even describe the power of the ache and the rage

Another person with expectations in the sky

While I'm somewhere among the trees

I wanted to say, "F**k you."

And walk away

But, kindness was thrown in the way

Always overpowering my rage and ache

Overpowering my shock...

But, soon we'll see how you feel when I throw in your f***ing face that Revealing was for you

But, you wouldn't know

You didn't care to read it.

I guess that was my first sign of how little you gave a s**t.

My tears are gone now, 

Replaced by silent anger,

And the boiling "F**k you" in my heart

There is no question of how.

Reviews

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

ah the youthful struggle of friendship, one that will never leave you however you will control in time, a most filling piece and one to ponder, well done.

[Tessa Melendez]

Thank you for your review.

[Lorry]

Sometimes the loss or end of a friendship or relationship leaves a bigger hole than we can fully comprehend. All the unanswered why's and what's and when's, the knowing the answers won't be forthcoming and all we can do is try to piece it all together ourselves. A job that feels like a million piece jigsaw of blackness, where no hint or clue where each piece goes. My heart goes out to you for being left feeling this, a feeling I know too well.

[Tessa Melendez]

Thank you so much, Nemo. I don't really know what to say in reply to this review. But, I am thankful for your empathy.

[Lorry]

You're welcome, and no need to say anything, just do what we do and keep going, that's what they keep telling me anyway. And remember, those who discard others, aren't worth the effort you put into them. There will be a day when someone is worth the effort, and hopefully both of you feel the same, which will be worth it in the end.

[Tessa Melendez]

Thank you. :)