Temptation

Avoid distraction, remember your purpose.

I go dead inside and conscience fades
But in my blankness I still remember
How much it will hurt later
How skin is not the highest truth to live for
and how I'm being crushed by all the futures I can imagine;
No matter how loudly I cry out
I have destroyed every way for anyone to believe
And now I know what it will feel like to fail,
To truly remain defeated,
And to run from the gift I begged for.
I'm still not certain if I sold my soul
But I will hang on to the curse
And spend my life trying to resurrect meaning
Encouraging my pride to remember humility
Because it's so easy to turn away
By forgetting temporarily the mistakes of the past.
But I can't escape truth
I will never escape truth
And the only reason I continue to breathe
Is because truth is what I found.
Who would have guessed something so intangible
Could weigh more than a million suns?
Ignorance is indeed bliss
But there's no way to close my eyes anymore
And I must learn to accept the blinding light
As I try to find a way to walk from the darkness
And hold hope in my heart I will be followed.

Author's Note

Part of a set of four. Declaration, Risen, Sinner Repentant and Temptation.

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So many lines in this touched me