The Scents of Time

Chicks can drive you nuts

 

…the sunlight burns my skin. This darkened room is bright with noise and smells. I can catch the scent of ecstasy every time I lower my head to my pillow. Even if I turn my head left and look right out the window, I no longer feel as though there is a world outside. I’ve lost touch. 

 

Arrrrgh! I want to be touched! My whole life I spent believing in Karma, the golden rule, all that s**t. Do on to others and what not. I have helped old people cross the street. I gave money to the poor. And the crème’ de la crème’, I took a f*****g chance on you. 

 

Oh, with your emerald eyes that cried long after the tears have dried. Your fantastic hair and your mango smell. I would just sit and try to sense what you would need next. I was very proactive in all this. Your only proactive stance was too leave me.

 

I’d call you a b***h but even the dog is still here. I just wanted to be able to turn to you at any given time, and ask you to hand me the paper. Or watch T.V., as I gently rubbed the back of your head.  Instead I torture myself on my hours off of work. The golden rule being forgotten now, because I can’t do this onto others. I’ll get f*****g arrested.

 

So now as I sit in this darkened space, reading to the light of the fire that keeps raging.  I let my thoughts wander in to the caverns of my mind. I let my situation define me. I hate. It takes so much energy to hate. Baby? Do you hear me? I’m tired from hating you. Maybe if I work out, I’ll bring a new bitterness to my vinegar. A new life to my rage.

Reviews

[Pj]

A very powerful piece! She certainly did drive you nutso and you portrayed this well.
Love can be torture, especially when your body and mind are wanting the same thing...double the need.

Loved this line:
"I'd call you a b***h but even the dog is still here" ....very moving...to say she is lower than an animal- she dug at you pretty deep.

Great emotion, fantastic shift between ideas...you made me do a double take...thought it was going to be a lovey dovey piece...but damn! You sure stomped that out lol

Nice work!

[Tai Chi Italy]

This was brillant, I love it. It is 'Do unto others' and no you can't just go around rubbing strangers heads. Working out is a great idea though, I have alway believed in directing negative energy in a positive and productive way, it makes you feel so good when you get it all out and look good too. Smiling at you, Tai