We Both Knew

We both knew that coming into this relationship would be different. We knew that it would be hard, and that we’d have to work at it, but that moment that you asked me to be yours, you were telling me that you were ready for the commitment of doing so, and when I said yes, that means that I was reassuring you of the same.
Now we’ve hit this point in our relationship where nothing is guaranteed, and anything can happen. All of the promises that were made through the course of our relationship so far could be broken with only 6 words. All of the feelings we’ve brought to the table could be gone within the blink of an eye.
We don’t want it to happen, but sometimes wanting the best for each other is the highest want of all, and we have to fufill that before anything else. There’s still that faith and hope in this relationship that makes me believe that it will take a sharp turn and everything will be okay, and that we can get things back on track. It only took one day…One very emotional and stressing day to bring all of this doubt onto our shoulders and into this relationship, but if we think thoroughly about what’s more important to us, then maybe we could get everything back to how it was before.
We constantly think about each other, this, I know. However, maybe we aren’t thinking the right things, maybe we’re thinking the wrong things, and that’s leading us in this direction. Our mind is tricking us and making it seem like as long as we’re on each other’s minds, then we’re thinking good. We’ve let our mind tricks get in the way of our true feelings and emotions, and It’s led us down this path of doubt and wonders. We are now letting the little things get in the way of the big picture, our feelings, and we’re not taking things to the next level of madness. 
All we want is what’s best for each other. I’m not sure if you realize though, what’s best for me is…YOU. Everything you are, everything you do, that is best for me, and that is not only what I want, but also what I need. You are a necessity; I need you in my life. At this point, the fear of you leaving my life overall, is overwhelming, and is overcoming all of my other feelings that is leading me to say these words I never thought I’d say about you…”Even if we are only friends, I still need you to be in my life.” Although being friends is way down the list of things I want to do with you, I’m more concerned at this point with having you in my life at all. 
I can’t tell you to stay, but I can only hope that you will. I can’t make you feel the same, but I can only pray that your feelings are mutual. I can’t stop you from doing what you may be aiming to do, but I can only hope to show you that not doing that would be a better choice. Believe it or not, we’ve come a long way. We’ve shared so many memories and feelings. I’m not ready to throw them away…I’m hoping you aren’t either.

Before I could even say any of this, you were out the door…Maybe what I knew was something that you needed to learn…Just not with me. I have never loved since…