Addiction

well i was feeling really down when i wrote this...

My heart is icey cold

I'm not feeling any warmth

 

No love is shed my way

Sitting a lone in the dark

 

Only thinking about the painful yet soothing

Blade across my skin

 

Too many tears have rolled down my face

That I'd rather shed blood than tears

 

I want to feel something

Other than my heart cracking

 

It's so addicting

So complicating

 

I know what I am thinking

Yet I can't stop myself

 

Memories flash throughout my mind

Remembering that feeling

 

Try to restrain myself

Keeping my hands clenched

 

Neverthless, my legs start moving

Arms stretch out, reaching for my weapon of choice

 

I know what I am doing to myself

But it is so addicting.

 

 

Author's Note

hello,readers. as i said i was feeling extremely down when i wrote this. thoughts flash into my mind. so i write them down so as to not do anything.