the love i can never have

meeting you was unforeseen

only that voice remembered, 

magnetic yet sensual;

projecting calmness and serenity.

 

charm unrecognized,

but as i get to fathom you,

the more remarkable you become.

nonetheless, you're my kind of man!

 

real being hidden in those flesh i see,

a lonely wounded heart,

emotions suppressed; ego shattered,

trying to get through turmoil.

  

i adore when you speak your mind;

your thoughts, notions and wit admired

i thought to myself...how could i be blind?

oh, what a marvelous creature of mankind!

 

you made me laugh and shed copious tears,

ambivalent feeling is all i have

but whatever it is; whatever you do,

still have that ardor for you.

 

sharing you my feelings was a first;

a shrug of shoulders is all i gained,
how lucky you are, my b*****d dear,

am falling for you; ever so clear.

when you're in someone's arms,

sharp blades of swords embed my heart;

bleeding profusely and in agony

pretending unaffected; deep inside in misery!

 

someday, i hope and pray,
a change of heart, you may;

a warm heart; keen and complaisant;

not cold, embittered nor calloused.

 

await for that moment; i say,

no matter how awry things be may.

am still deeply enamored with you

and 'twas just not easy to let go.

 

but setting you free, must do

to ease the pain i undergo
i know, my love, i know;

i can never have you.

 

30 Nov 2010

Reviews

[khalid]

a very sad poem, alot of feelings of depression mixed with feelings of challenge. although it is really sad, you have nicely picked nice images, i like most the seventh stanza, unique image of suffering even during having a hug! that is really wonderful!