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A Poem by Matthew

this really isnt a poem, its more like a pissed off rant. i wrote it out in like one long paragraph but decided to break it up into random lines.

film again
run blank click
click click
pictures captured
blurred by
years of falling in the same
hole dug
out by shovels of past
lovers who didn't stay as long as
you had imagined
unfinished pictures
to tell a small story you've
forgotten
then there's the ones
who never came at all they
were busy buying
diamond houses lipstick
stained blouses of
high heel'd perfum'd sunglasses
madness marrying men
with massivly empty egos
and they never
noticed your sorrow
no you were alone
in that
alone with the moon
glowing blueandgloom
glowing blue and gloom
just you
and the moon and the
moon and you and the moon
but the honey drips so
slow it drips so slow
it moves as fast
as your friends breaking
you her love forsaking
you their care
removed from you and nothing's
left but silence
nothing's left but
silence so loud so
loud you cant
hear anything else all voices
are muted all poems
are silenced all songs
arouse no emotion no
emotion no emoiton and
you're left feeling like a
bled liver dry riddled
in decay after years years
of drinking that s**t
that once made you feelOK
that once made you feel as tho you
were more than this and in the end
you realized you
never ever never never ever were
more than those thoughts
you had after seeing a
movie or watching
a play or clicking
thru the tv channels you
were just you and only
you that same you that
followed you to every mirror
only to gaze into
empty eyes and
see lines running
so deep that
sad canyons had
formed from where
the smiles
of her silly jokes and
sweet kisses had
dwelled
this feeling this
monster forms from
within swells
up so big and starts
eating you from within
from within it eats
you and you throw
prayers in its
face in hopes of halting
this destrucion but
mirrors never lie and
women never cry
and true guilt settles
in only after you say
goodbye