Where Am I?

A nostalgic moment of mine

            I sit and listen, letting the lyrics wash over me and the beat drown out the painful drone of my slow pounding heart. I don’t want to hear it anymore. I don’t want to feel it anymore. I look around me and the colors are all muted. The sunlight fades to a brooding gray. I know it is there but I feel no warmth. I do not feel the leather cushion beneath me nor do I hear its pitiful exhale as I lean into it. My sister says something to me and I register the vibrations of her voice, but not her words. I turn to stare blankly at her in response until my eyes begin to water and she is smudged out of clarity.

 

I am here.

But I am not here.

 

And then I close my eyes, and the entire world lights up behind the guarding shade of my lids. Suddenly, I feel the pressure of his hand against my palm and the snug feeling of our laced fingers. And then there is the feather-light branding of his lips slowly kissing the length of my neck. I can smell the glorious scent of him and only him. And I can see that bright dazzling smile that he saved for me and only me. I can feel his hot breath on my lips, tentatively asking for a kiss. A request that leaves no room for denial.

 

I am here.

But I am not here.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

You seen to balance love
against melancholy.
A tug, pulling you and '
pushing your need.
Beautifully written.
---- John

[SheActsLikeSummer]

Amazing. The way you repeated the 'I am here, But I am not here.' I also found the length the be great. It's short, but it's gahh... awesome. :P

[Kiari Sabon]

a shadow in both realms..... the pull and trust of a shadowed other a balance hard 2 gain and the rush of unknown and lossing pain that we ever gain.... i like the write