The L word

In my mind recently
I've erased the word 'depressive' to
'Not OK'.
Because keeps on feeling that way does not help.
And I have to continue telling myself that all of this gonna be better soon.
It almost feels like I've to be the saviour of my own.

I really wonder if there's a god
How would he feels about my bloody poetry.
But I'm sorry religion.
I don't like the idea of getting hope from lies.

What's the meaning of marriage?
When the relationship is just a torture for one another.
Does loving somebody pays such price?
Why does the idea of leaving somebody cause such trouble?
Wouldn't it be better if every idiot just fall in love with their left hand forever?
I'm just asking question that has no answers.
Why?
Because Im feeling lost
All the whole damn time.