you said

we all have those moments in our lives that make us break into tiny peices and we have to learn to build ourselfs up. we have to learn to try to be ourselfs again. we struggle every day wondering.

you said you loved me 

but you crushed me 

you said you wouldn't hurt me 

but you killed me anyways

i don't understand why?

why you could lie to my face

did you even care how i felt

how you left me feeling?

i loved you with every beat of my heart

you said you loved me

how could you lie to me 

how could i fall for you again 

how can you go on living

knowing what you have done

i don't understand why? 

why after i said how i felt 

after you apologized 

how you could still do me wrong

how you can still hurt me 

why would you ask me out 

for another chance 

just so you could crush what is left of me 

how can you try and take it all 

i don't understand how u cant tell me

why you left me again 

how can ignoring me 

make a person feel 

so many questions?

so many unanswered thoughts

i still don't know it it was you or me 

did i make you leave again

or was this all you 

did you want to see if i could handle it 

how can you do me like this

how can you not care how i would feel

do you ever think of me? 

do you ever wonder if i'm alright? 

does it even matter to you?

was i not good enough? 

was i to much for you? 

why would you want a second chance 

when you already knew that you would crush me

was it easy? 

was it hard? 

did you plan it this way? 

how come you played me again?

did you ever love me?

was i just a game to you? 

Author's Note

im sorry if there are any mistakes im still at that moment that these questions hurt still. i never thought that he could hurt me a second time. that he would want to after he told me he wouldnt. typing them still make me cry.

Reviews

[Gideon X. A. Elson]

I'm sorry for what's happened and therefore inspired this piece. In such then also the deluge of questions that come flooding forth. Let us seek out time for it has a way of grinding boulders to sand. The medium can be helpful in its mitigation of our emotions. You've done the right thing here, wrote them down and cast them from upon yourself and into the world. The world will answer in time.

[taylorrose]

thank you for your thoughts. I wrote this at a time in my life when I didnt have control over my own self. i didn't realize until now just how broken this girl was and how much she really wanted help but didn't know where to go. I look back and i see this girl that i don't recognize. my life is totally different then it was back then. people like you gave me the strength. it taught me that warriors arent born over night.

[Gideon X. A. Elson]

And so it seems the world did indeed answer in time. In glad to hear it.

[YesIAmHuman]

This is so beautiful, yet devastatingly sad. I hope you're doing alright, you seem very hurt in this. You are an amazing poet, and you definitely conveyed a lot of emotion in your poem. It was very well written, and I think you are very talented, your poem is very strong and holds a lot of emotion.

[taylorrose]

when I wrote this i was confused i was a broken girl. I thought love was something that it wasnt. i realize now that even those he crushed me crushed my heart it help me find just who i was ment to be.