she didn't want to die

sometimes we think people who kill themselves want to die. most of the time they just want the pain to go away.

emotional 

distracted 

anger

sadness 

she took it all in 

she held that the pain 

she couldnt take anymore

the heart can only take so much 

before its tested

she wrote her story 

telling the world 

how cruel they were

how she couldn't face them anymore

she quietly went into the bathroom

she sat down on the floor 

tears falling down her face

asking god why her 

why the pain 

she thought and thought 

until her thoughts became her worst nightmare 

she took her razor 

she cut both wrist 

the blood began to come down her arm 

what felt like hours 

seemed to slip bye

she begged her self to stop 

she didn't want to die

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her eye lids got heavy

life flashed before her 

she could hear noises in the distance

she woke up in a white place

with a girl 

a girl who is her 

little girl with sad eyes

she tried to speak

but only the little girl could speak

she looked at her and said why 

why would you give up so easy 

you were born to fight

and she was gone 

in the distance was doctors 

she saw them telling her mom 

they lost her 

i didn't want to die

i just wanted to pain to go away 

Author's Note

this isnt about me