Slap Me Back To This Place

i feel the wind with every breath

there is only one place like this

it is just what i left

now it is bring me closer to death.

I roll my head back

as i notice the answer to what is that

I was so close to done

now i am no where near gone.

Each thought is new

as my brain changes views

I feel so at peace with myself

I question why I stopped my inner self.

It is good but too much for true

each new inhale lights a fuse

One so precious once gone will never be fixed

i don't care speaking for myself I am ready for another hit.

Slap me back to this place

I had changed

But it doesn't matter anymore

This time there is no true cure.

One by one with every intake

My eyes begin to glaze

My vision projects my surroundings as a maze

Making my emotions haze.

I am no longer the good one

Stronger is what I lost to be this monster i have become

No one seen the redness or thoughts words spoken by I

It made no sense to anyone that I am different-

-different than the normal me that is proclaimed. 

Listen for the cough from my room

Answer my text I need more to do

Run me here and over there

Just so I can end up being screwed.

Light to flickers and light to pain

No matter the mind state

Everything begins to be questioned

No matter how close you are to going to prison.