I Do Not Care That You Used Me

I Do Not Care That You Used Me

A Poem by Sunflower

I am alone
Nothing is alright.

I can't sleep
With the memories my heart plays on repeat.

I hate how weak I am
From knowing the feeling of your love
Through the embrace holding your hand.

I am not okay
Just stop me now before it is too late.
What if it already is
What if I finally just do it?

Parents scream stabs at my heart
I refuse to cry infront of them
But once they are gone I fall apart.

I have nothing
It is horrifying.
I cannot get this word off my mind
I cannot get anything to stay mine.

I am giving up
For when I keep trying it is never enough.
I have lost so much
I could never be good enough.

I do not care that you used me
Just... hold me....
I gave you everything
To be this empty shell of nothing.

© 2012 Sunflower


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I can relate with the refusing to fall apart in front of your parents then allowing yourself once they leave...I'm sorry you feel this way Taya....Vicky is here

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Sunflower
Sunflower

Kendallville, IN



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27. About to be divorced from my abuser. Trying to heal, and still searching to find who my true self is and where my soul feels peace. My life is a constant battle of how tough can I truly be. I have.. more..

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