Just Know A Single Word

just a thought

on something that is being caught

more like a disease

that is ruining families

a single word

suicide ends the pain of the world.

How dare they say it isn't the only way

How I am to move on and be okay

I f*****g love him but I am nothing

He hates me and my heart is aching

Why can't I just f*****g die

I've arealdy stayed up for weeks of nights just to cry.

I'm so f*****g miserable

No one understands that thoughts making my mind full

How can it not take my pain away

Oh you think I should care about how others would feel the next day

They would be ever so thrilled

Knowing that the girl has finally been killed.

No one likes me

It's obvious to see

I have ruined my life and everything

There is no point in my existence and being

So why not die and continue bleeding

For my reasons to stay are fleeing.

Tears burn my skin as I talk to you

Maybe you will notice something is wrong and find something to do

Try to save me for you are the only one

And you are the main reason I'm done

I don't understand what ever happened to me

Whatever it is I deserve to die and flee.

I'm such a f**k up

Why can't I just shut up

My heart won't let me move on

Everything is falling apart and the list keeps going on and on

Just leave me be it's obvious I deserve every bit of this I'm getting

Maybe I will get horns or I will get lucky and get wings.

I love you

Just know I f*****g love you

But you are killing me 

I do not understand nor see

Why you ever ended it

But now I know it's because I'm just a piece of s**t.