Special

Written March 15, 2011

She let's it out 

She screams it out aloud 

She shouts.

She replays it through her mind 

She loses herself in time 

She slowly begins to cry 

She sees through foggy eyes but she trys.  

She tells what's in her thoughts 

She says she isn't caught 

She is 

She isn't 

She knows it.

She tells what's in her heart 

She knows it's not much but a start 

She feels it as best 

She finds it right 

She avoids goodbye 

She says goodnight.   

She sits alone 

She finds it luring in her bones 

She feels it in her viens  

She wants it but she can't take it the same She wants the pleasure of pain 

She wants him 

She knows the way he feels but she's stuck on his every wim.    

She screams 'i hate myself' 

She knows this road 

She falls to her knees 

She can barely breathe 

She screams his name 

She knows he's the hero in this game 

She let's the words flow 

She trys to breathe slow 

She stumbles to try to get up 

She can't after it all enough wasn't enough She does it again 

She feels it all within.

She sits there arm across arm 

She means herself harm 

She feels bad 

She makes herself mad 

She see clearly now 

She she feels him but how 

She is in the dark 

She is the one she didn't want to be   

She let's the wall slip away 

She laughs out of pain 

She runs in circles 

She is searching 

She is screaming  

She knows it shouldn't be this way 

She doesn't want it to go away

She feels real 

She says he feels special    

She let's him know 

He doesn't really know 

He doesn't understand 

He is maybe her perfect man 

He has her 

She let's herself be his 

But he doesn't know.

  He may never truely know...

Reviews

[SuicidePact.]

loved the ending!