Dear Goodbye, Why

Written Friday, November 5, 2010

Dear goodbye,

Why do u have to be so hard to say?
I try it everyday.
But I never have the strength to.
But i always have the reasons to.
I try to act like it's fine.
I try to pretend I sleep everynight.
I smile sometimes just out of self pity.
And still there's no one here with me.
I try harder everyday.
Just trying to find my place.
But there is none.
Nowhere for me me to watch the sun.
No place for me to feel safe.
No place for me to go away.
Hurt with pain starting to show.
But there's no way that you'd know.
How much I've been hurting.
Because I'm still not speaking.
Not telling a soul.
But not letting it go.
So why say high,
When I've been perparing myself for goodbye.