Band

You say band is like a family

An escape from wrongs

What if that's where I don't belong.

I thought I had friends

But they just turn to faces

Who turn their backs on me

Did they understand

That When I say I want to quit

I do not mean band

I mean life.

I want this to end.

Band used to be where I

The lonely girl

Felt like she mattered

But now I have new lines to tatter

It's hard to hide a secret so dark

But that's why I do not do it to my arms

I put them in places no one dares to look

That way I do not ruin there image

They have pictured of me

They think I'm recovering

They think I'm fine

It's all a lie

That they tell themselves to make it alright.

They make me feel even more alone

And as for today when I got sent home

I questioned if I should take my own life

Maybe then they would understand.