No More Flirting

It turned from a flirtation
Into a heated relationship
That fell cold several times
But then we repaired the rips
It turned from a relationship
Into a reluctant little family
That fell cold once again
And has remained so grandly
I have stretched myself thin
And grown comfortable with a new me
Hoping and praying for you
To say that we are meant to be

Yet hear I sit, still waiting
Waiting for you to make a decision
I can’t imagine what’s so hard
Don’t you like this new revision?
You have come to know many versions
The people I turned myself into
Don’t you like this one the best?
Why are we still such an issue?
I don’t think you want us to be “us”
I am simply meant to be “a friend”
You want it to be like that flirtation
But this is where it has to end

I will not sit and wait and cry
I’d rather be alone than this
I feel like I’ve been betrayed
No matter how magical is your kiss
I feel those butterflies again
And that warm, fuzzy feeling in my belly
But I feel more like a mistress than anything
That alone says you’re not ready
No matter how good it all feels
I won’t play this painful game
We’re better off apart for good
Even if I go insane

Author's Note

Just written on the fly, feeling down and depressed about...everything =/

Reviews

[BDKR]

I don't know when this was written, but I trust you are OK now.

Great writing. Honest and full of feeling.

[A.Lee]

Very sad, but well written poem.

[Jessica Mai]

I can feel the emotion bursting through this poem. A lovely write. Well done