Addicted

it is all you think about                                                      I crave you               

constantly craving                                                       and every cell in my body

how you are going to get it                                     screams out for more...

doesn't matter what you have to do                               I cannot ignore their voices..

it just doesn't                                                           ...time is motionless

in the beginning it made you                                         as I frantically wait for you

feel the way you always wanted

made you who you always wanted to be                        Ahh...the sweet comfort

you could escape                                                 not the ecstasy it used to be

the high was like a mental orgasm                          now more like ill fitting clothes

                                                                                damp and gritty

now you are so far from where you started    i carefully crumple up my faded body

constantly craving                                                    and try to sleep...

it's all that you think about

overriding every thought

forcing every action

pushing you

to consume

you have to

only now

it is just to feel normal...almost

the mental orgasm a long gone memory

just out of reach

now you are just mindf#!ked

you can't get off no matter what

you get so close to euphoria...only to slide back down...

you land below normal

that is where you live

you struggle with it for awhile

then you start the game all over again

'cept this is not a game

this is your hell...

Reviews

[B]

Love .................................

[Pash]

Addiction goes beyond that of mere substance abuse. Being addicted to a person, a memory, In my opinion is that much more harder to overcome. I thought your words were powerful and moving, You painted a vivid and raw picture of what it feels like to be in desperate longing.
Great read!
Keep writing.
DB

[Taylor]

Returning the favor of a review. This is about as accurate account of what addiction is like that I have seen. It is lyrical as well, full of pathos. Words such as "'cept this is not a game" hit home. Amazing job.

[terry smith]

Thanks for the review, and the kind words!:)

[andrew mitchell]

addiction this is and so hard to break if not disciplined like giving up cigs! A good write Terry

[Willard Wells]

Once and addict, always and addict. It's just a matter of were in your realm of addiction you find satisfaction and security without going over the edge. Hope you can stay on the right side of this demon. Well penned by someone who I think had to be there.

[Cherry Pepperweb]

I've sister hell but not in this form, having no control over yourself.
Bring driven by a need that is erosive. That must be difficult.

[Cherry Pepperweb]

That's should say I've seen hell. Auto correct is a b***h.

[terry smith]

I tried to get auto correct for my life...they sent me white out instead. :)

[Cherry Pepperweb]

Well, your poetry is like liquid paper...
Do you know what that means?

[terry smith]

no? enlighten me.")

[....................]

i always imagined this is what addiction truly looks like...

[terry smith]

Oh it is much worse.

[....................]

i've seen worse cases but not having gone through one it's hard to truly understand it