My True Desire Hopefully Realized

A Confession

I'm always looking for something I already have. I constantly looking for a savior in running, entertainment, food.  I'm constantly looking for intimacy in impurity, causing distance. I constantly looking for healing in supplements and rest, causing more agitation. Why am I searching in wells that run dry, broken cisterns that leave me wanting more? Why am I not satisfied in Christ, the only one who can satisfy? Do I have Him? I rely too much on my eyes and they lead me astray.  I rely too much on my heart but it too so easily wanders to this vendor and that.  I rely too much on my mind to find that the answers are just fed by my eye and then leads me to confused ideology and idolatry.  I rely too much on my perception but it becomes an all consuming backdrop that fades with time.  I rely too much on myself for the life I can't have on my own. I need something more. I can't fix my life with broken and faulty mechanisms. I need You. The only One.  Though I don't want You most of the time because I want to be the hero, the intellect, the knight, the savior. But I need You. And that' all I have, a need.  And You are the true solution. I've been a phony and I can't change on my own. I'm a liar, a crook, a fool. How can a liar be truthful?How can a crook truly give? How can a fool understand? I need You. The only One, the only Way, and the only Life.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"How can a liar be truthful?How can a crook truly give? How can a fool understand? I need You. The only One, the only Way, and the only Life."
I like the strong description leading the reader to a powerful ending. Most of us want too much or too little. Hard to know what we really need. I like the flow of thoughts and the very good ending. Thank you for the outstanding poem.
Coyote