Until It Lasts

I was on cloud nine,

living the best time of my life

But eventually it all ended without a sign,

wondered what in my life is in control of mine

And I prayed for my lost love to come back,

yet I was left with agony and those midnight texts

Struggled to read them with those watery eyes,

trying to understand at which part the issue arise

So I looked at them from your point of view,

and rather I came across a wholly different truth

I asked myself how could I be so naïve,

thinking that you loved me too like Adam loved Eve

Surely was blinded by the love I had for you,

when I fantasized a future not for one but for two

Deceived myself with beliefs in your beautiful lies,

but how could I have possibly known what was behind your heavenly eyes

And now that when I take a glimpse in the past,

I see this labyrinth that I am stuck in, is way too vast

It feels like you were never really here with me,

I wasn't perfect either, I will agree.

Exhibiting some good traits and some really bad,

but I truly loved you with all I had

Yet I guess my delusions were what was at fault,

no possible ways were to bring my thoughts at halt

And I created it all in my mind,

a man who loved me and was so extremely kind

I was living in a fool's paradise, refusing to see what was real

and now with all this anger ,love and hopelessness I don't even know how to feel..