Evil Thoughts

Why do I have these terrible thoughts?
Why am I starting to give in?
I don't want to give up.
I want to live.
I want to be free.
I want be happy,
But I am stuck in these shackles.
These shackles of a prisoner,
They torture me.
They fill me with a darkness that I've never felt.
I want to be free from these shackles.
How can I ever gain my freedom?
I cannot live,
It seems as though I must give in,
For I have tried to leave,
But there is no light for me to find.

Author's Note

Hi everyone, I know this isn't one of my better poems,but I need to get this out of my system. I've been going through a rough time lately and I would love any advice you could give me.

Reviews

[Uranus]

Thank you for sharing this wonderful poem. My heart as well, speaks the same sometimes - and we all need to let those feelings out one way or the other or else, we get stuck in a mud hole.

[H.N.Seal]

I love how you address the struggle of the will to live and the temptation of death. I struggle quite often with this myself. Keep up the good work!

[Alice Maria]

Thank you, I'm happy that you can see that others feel the same way. Stay strong.

[Einstein Noodle]

i can feel the temptation to give in/up ...it is common to all ..we just suffer it in different degrees ...if we feel depression ..anxiety, fear and even horror .. all make the temptation out of proportion ... the honest vulnerability of your expression is admirable .. so relatable! ...getting such things out in the open is a great step in the right direction ... well done says i!
E.

[Alice Maria]

Thank you. Everyone on this website has been so sweet and kind to me. Writing helps me be free and I don't know what I'd do without it.

[Einstein Noodle]

wow! me too!

[Im His Daughter]

Your submission is now read in the http://www.writerscafe.org/contests/Nature%2C-Auroras%2C-Lights%2C-Trees%2C-Water%2C-Outdoors-Contest/54059/ please stay tuned for the winning poems. Thank you for your entry. I loved the poem! Me too re: authors note! If we aren't friends add me!

[Alice Maria]

Thank you so much. I will be happy to add you as my friend.

[angelina neves]

It is a lovely way to express your feelings...
I'm sorry that you are going through bad time and hope you are feeling better now that you have put it out of your chest...

[Alice Maria]

Thank you. I feel a lot better now. Writing is truly a gift that kept me alive.

[rowan.taylorrr]

i'm going through this at the moment and it honestly sucks so much, it is so stressful. this is what writing is about, almost all the stuff on my page is like this, if you ever need someone feel free to message me any time

[Alice Maria]

Thank you so much. It's good to know I'm not the only one. Listen, the same goes for you. Message me if you need someone to talk to.

[Rubein Geterminah]

Don't give up!!!?
You have a reason to stay and get over your difficulties.
Leaving will be grieving, unfeeling
and unfaining.
Stay....stay, too much you got to offer to the world through your experiences.
I too recovering from terrible setbacks and mine narrative too sad if I whirled.
But I find hope and reason to live through my writings.
I would appreciate to be your friend and welcome for acquaintance.
Please stay.

[Alice Maria]

Thank you so much. Honestly, a person needs to hear this once in a while. I cannot express how much your words mean to me.

[Rubein Geterminah]

I understand dear.
I'm glad you are alive

[Alice Maria]

Me too. I'm glad that I didn't give up. If I hadn't wrote this to let out those feeling ps, I think I wouldn't have been here now.

[Rubein Geterminah]

So true.
That's what writing is about.
We survive to provide encouragement for others through our experiences

[Alice Maria]

Yes it really is. Thank you again for your encouragement.

[CarlyFlower]

Hey, I find myself in a place like this often. I find that it's usually because I am still hurt about my past. Maybe I feel like I want vengeance, and I'm sad nobody was there for me. How do you feel?

[Alice Maria]

Exactly as you described, yet I think it's both the present and past combined that crushes my spirit.

[A little flame]

You are very good at expressing your feelings. I can clearly see the picture you've painted here. I can deeply relate to feeling imprissioned and by the grace of Jesus Christ I have been set free! May the Lord Grant you peace. Take courage, dear heart❤

[Alice Maria]

Thankyou for your kind words.

[Bear]

Poetry is a living breathing extension of its life mate, it reflects the thought and feeling therein. What better way to free your heart, mind, and soul of its wisdom or woes? Learning to trust your poetry to express itself even of secrets you may be unwilling to reveal to the world is the biggest challenge. Poetry can tell all in words others can understand or it can speak volumes in few words. This is a poem speaking to free you from the gloom, to teach you about your hidden self hoping to teach and protect you. Will you listen and learn? Bravo! I love to listen to the heart, mind and soul when others poetry speaks. Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap!

[Alice Maria]

Thank you. I truly don't think I would be alive right now if I hadn't started to write poems. It's the way I express myself and free myself from the demons in my soul.

[Bear]

Poetry has been my best friend for over fifty years and I know if has saved my life many times :~)