Should I jump?

Fear of the unknown but not afraid to see it

So here we are again
About to jump into the abyss
Scared to live with myself
Floating towards destruction like a wrecking ball
To crash into a concrete karma
What will happen if I jump?
Will I be able to die with failure?
Or find out I’m gone with a whisper
To never return again
But I’m not afraid of disappearance
Yet scared of the unknown
The height is too far to climb
And the drop is too long to hit
Well, here goes nothing
Jumpstarts is the mental health
Hopefully I will get a cure to my questions
For I am not leaving