Autopilot

I found this in my notebooks. I am guessing I wrote this when I was about fifteen. enjoy

Sometimes I dont even feel human... Like I am just some kind of machine running on auto pilot with no way toflip the switch. Like I am just gonig through the motions of my life without even feeling,thinking, or anything. Im just smiling and laughing and being the perfect image of the "normal teenage girl" but I am so the opposite of that and I have no way of showingthat so I have placed myself inside of this machine that I have created and not I have no way back out. The only way I can become somewhat human again is tocontrol my enviroment, by creating a void inside of myself... an empty space inside of my soul that constantly reminds myself that I am  in fact still a human being that feels love and feels joy. That I am only just trapped and closed inside of this image...my machine...my creation... my masterpiece... my own and living body.

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[Marie]

This sounds like a teenage girl, with some of the feelings a girl will have, of just going through the motions...