slowly, slowly drifting apart

You ever get that feeling that your one true, genuine love is slipping away?

One of the hardest things I've experienced was the loss his feelings for me. It came slowly upon us. It was unexpected, yet I always felt this would occur. It is similar to a papercut... at first you do not feel it, then when you wash your hands and mind, the pain comes flooding in. 

I had dreams we would get married. I had dreams of us. I had imagined the rest of my life with my happiness, and it slips through my finger tips. The most tragic part of all, is the fact that he does not see it. I know him; I know his feelings. I can see it, happening right before my eyes. And it is painful to watch.

But here I am, wishing for the day it shifts back to how we were. It is like a huge wave you can see coming up on the shore. You cannot help but watch as all the water comes crashing over you. It is the most painful thing.

There is a piece of me waiting for it all to come back to him. All the feelings of pure bliss we once had. Now my feelings are hidden under my tongue, yearning to come out, but suppressed to just cherish the good moments we have left, until it all gets swallowed whole. It is the most painful thing. 

Author's Note

This may feel a little messy, but I am glad I could write it down. Please enjoy a part of my brain :)

Reviews

[Masked writer]

I can relate completly, it makes me think of the way i thought when my ex and I's relationship was coming to an end, thankyou

[BraveMoon]

Almost like I was meant to read this to understand that even though we feel alone... there are others who feel the same way at the same moment. Thanks for sharing!