No Magic AnymoreA Poem by SwirlharmonyLeaving magical thoughts behind to face the reality of what is true and real in relationshipsI've left my lover so true as it was, for happiness that is free and will let me be I am a tired woman full of sadness every day that feels she pulls a hard cart with no pay life is good though, full of riches, pleasing to the eye thats for sure. but my heart lays heavy day after day of a man that brings me no gay He is a man of no words, his wall to me is high we didn't make it through as I thought we would FLY, I was sure we would fly, like some god gifted magical couple that was born to be together my magical thinking like this has for sure brought me more of this pain that I thought possible. I was sure God made us for each other His love went a few years ago and my trying ended a couple ago The feeling of being special to someone is now just a flee feeling now old tethered and used for pro creation is all I am left for. He drinks to the bottle too much although no damage is done his walls go high; his life is on another world now mine is too. Who would of thought life would turn this way. My life is of dreamy places; over looking lakes, with mist over the top thoughts on paper and coffee shops. Markets and people near by; writers, explorers and artists i am 34 now, a young enough women to stop believing in magic or being the ‘nice girl,’ I dont want to be seen as a divorcee, A failure, a woman who is thought of as bad I cant handle that, I think; but reality sets in. The picture was painted a long time ago, of a girl and boy who thought that they did know true love knocked on their door once, they opened and embraced but love has over stayed its welcome, It know sits around like a slob, with a belly beer in hand, no pants on and remote in hand; with a sad lonely woman in the next door, Im a sad tethered woman who is looking to feel free, and to be me, the woman in the house were the sun shine gentle where the rain falls and wind blows in winter the window that shows the big old trees, the artists, and explorers meet for coffee learning of a future that bewilders the memories Oh help me have the strength dear Lord to stop believing in magic please give me my house I love so dear to share with family and friends please grant me pure love that helps me to grow a soft love that gives pleasure and sows I want to sow too, and give pleasure as well sensuality and love all the way I can make a home for us to share one where thickness of hate is not in the air please grant me the strength, bring me a miracle Lord I am desperate for advise; I no longer want to live year after year unhappy no more nor do i wish to make a family tear apart with hate but I have tried now too much Lord and I watch him depart more and more, will i be the fool in the end because I cannot hear you, because I believe in this magic of love ? I am getting old now, my looks are fading, my body has pro created and my heart is longing so much for a love that pleases my heart I want to still travel the world I want to show the world to the kids Lord I would love finances that keep my life afloat, please i beg you to bless me financially lord bless me with a a love that pleases my heart that brings happiness to me and my life I have learnt that magic doesn't not exist in this world but in my heart but i beg you dear lord to look upon me, please don't forget me, while I live upon this earth I live once, I know, I wish to see and feel all I can bad and good, but when I go through my bad I ask you give me the strength that I need to get through with a renewed strength and confidence that carried me through bring people into my life at the right time Lord and help me to be open to them I am human here and I am calling upon you Lord. Please hear my cry and work out the plan ahead of me My days are dark, my heart is heavy, my mind is restless of the future. My dreams are making me tired, I am fresh with so many ideas ground me Lord and give me your strength to find my way through. © 2015 SwirlharmonyAuthor's Note
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Added on December 21, 2015 Last Updated on December 21, 2015 Tags: relationships, love, hardships, poems AuthorSwirlharmonyGold Coast, AustraliaAboutA mother of 3, a travel agent and I have a a deep feeling for the old english life that captures my mind time and time again. I with to just write about it and have others read and share theirs with .. more..Writing
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