Who am I

Story: The roles have interchanged. The girl has always refrained herself from the gestures the boy has tried to shower on her by a verbal indifference and taciturn attitude.The boy however has always refered it as a superficial response and pampered her as always. But this time,he has agreed to this one thing which she in real never wanted him to. The boy is now a tough exterior agreeing to whatever she says. It is killing the girl cause she only knows that her speech defies her thoughts and the fact that her said words are being actually heard this time is making her perturbed inside. She is not able to believe that she can actually fall in love which she everytime used to sweep away from her, nicely without ,disturbing her composure. This time something is happening to her which by closing her eyes, covering her ears and enchanting her soothing words she do not want to realise that she is actually in love.

Alter-ego that chides me

for I am changing before I know

Is it a spell or an unplanned ruse

that I use to seize this glow.

I am not liking what I am

since I am no more I

I dont fear, I dont argue

I feel like I may die.

I had myself somewhere inside

Cosy, helpful, talkative and kind

Today it's deep dark here

and only one light in my mind.

I want all my thoughts back

and all my lost trends

and go back where it was fun

to have lots n lots of friends.

He is quiet, as I asked him to

He looks at me but doesnt smile

Why do I think of his face again?

Why do I miss his style?

Never has it happened once

When I might have gone beyond

leaving my tiny world of dreams

and long for one strange bond.

I feel like a skeptic mask

that hangs in lovely disguise

hiding the untamed beauty

that always wants to lie.

Noone can help me,neither can I

cause I am under a magical cast

I still have my strings attached

to the life that I lived last.

I love him cause I love him

I hate him cause he stole me

Doesnt matter if I lose this battle

cause all I want is to be happy.

Nothing in this world is hard to achieve

Even to forget a stranger

but the question stands still there

Why did I have to remember?

The rules I created, the choices I made

have always rolled me high

I am falling down like a dupe

where I could see no sky.